The Depth of Maliciousness

Current mood:confused

Considering the last 72 hours, I have had quite a lot to think about. Now, I am philosophic on most things in life. I'm really a laid back gentleman who doesn't sweat the small things in life. I easily let most things roll off my back but look to what the future may hold. But even the most optimistic get a bit grinded. I feel that way today, so please excuse the mess. I rarely complain about much so this is uncharted territory for me now.

I have had the opportunity to look further into the depth of people, and as someone who lives his life by the creed "treat others as you would have them treat you"...I just am confounded at just how twisted and jaded so many are in this world. Perhaps my optimism is clouding my realism, I'm just not sure. I know I am not niave' by any means, but I am just trying to wrap my mind around what causes people to do malicious and calculated deeds for what ever reason, be it for entertainment, vindictiveness, or just out and out immaturity. To just ask why is not enough.

I never have understood abusers. Either physical, mental, or verbal. I've learned how to deal with them but I just don't understand their needs. I mean, I know you can't reason with them because they are great manipulators. They truly only understand one option, and usually that has to be enforced painfully and decisively, and they usually whine and cry afterwards. I have no sympathy and definitely cannot empathize. If I ever hear the phrase "Look what you made me do.....", mercy will not be in my repertoire in dealing with them, Let God do that. Respect is not only earned, it to be nurtured and protected. Those who seek comfort and entertainment in maliciousness are to be shunned and given no respect in all matters until they want to learn to cherish it as much as we do.

You know, as angry as I feel inside at the moment, I will have to give credit to those who have given me so much hope and comfort. My oldest daughter is my angel, my beacon of guidance to look to the future and to strive to achieve more. She is my joy of joys. My littlest protector in life who can roar as one of the mightiest. She makes being a father greater than any words I can express to you in this way. My youngest daughter is my mischevious little scamp who brings the gift of wonder to my life. The all seeing eye of amazement she possesses keeps me seeking new adventures and to continue the curiousity of how things "work". My cousin Kim is the epitomy of endurance and achievement. She is the little sister I never had, but always knew. She is the strength that binded a family, a shield that survived the crush of mayhem, and a dear woman who loved and still loves deeply inspite of it all. She did the best she could with what she was dealt and never compromised. She wasn't perfect, but the achievements she helped mold in many lives will be evident for generations yet to come.

I have no wish to explore the depth of maliciousness, but I also have no urge to experience its stinging effects either. They only weapons we have to defend against it is the truth of our own integrity, faith in the care we hope to share and recieve with others, and to respect all who demonstrate that respect is a piece of their life that they cherish.