Reasons for Modification and The Inconvenient Truths

It is the title of My Blog! Oh I am grinning through tears...some tears of joy and some of pain! Truly I am!...Self reflections are so bitter sweet!! 95% of people are tooo afraid to share and the other 5% are either too ignorant or too narcissistic to even consider doing it...to worried that it will come back and hurt them later..and it just might..so courage is hard to come by :) well in my life? I have been dealt ENOUGH pain that the next round can't even come close....and yes..Congrats to the narcissistic critics of me! I am here and tesitifying! HALLELUJAH!!  and so proud to do so!! I am a Deep Loving Old Soul, and have realized over a short lifetime..we let catalysts into our lives that push in the greatest of ways. We either find our greatest nemesis..(which I have)...or our greatest grace..(which I have found as well)

Past greatness and past mistakes will hold us back. Trying to turn back time... to reach back for both.... is dangerous! I stopped, I had too...and we should acknowledge that they are now the force pushing US forward, ME forward, like an ignited rocket....It is not what I ever did...but what I learned from what I have done. I sought atonement and forgiveness of myself first, then I sought out those that I knew I had wronged, before? I allowed others to define me, Distract me, Manipulate me...Now? I seek how I can now be a better man everyday and be Grace..not a nemesis...I don't blame those of the past any longer, I am free! and most importantly? I don't blame myself for others "Bad Behavior".  I was once almost wiped from this planet...and I am thankful I am still here...I have buried friends and hurt deeply , but I am human, and on the tiniest of levels, glad I was not one that joined my former friends and loved ones on that final trip. I am Thankful that so many have not as well. The sense of cherish is strong in my heart....I want to teach that to my children, my family and my friends. Some lessons are not always going to be "Happy, Shiny"

I have crossed paths with those that barely acknowledged me in the past, and also with those that have never known me, but I knew who they were...and I am so grateful they want to know me now! I have crossed paths with those that made petty choices in the past, in an attempt to humiliate me and others...to hurt me and others, for their own miserable reasons..and also to those that have forgotten, or at that time, thought no one would ever remember their mean words or deeds...but keep in mind, I Do! Many remember not your words, but how you made them feel! Blessedly, We all grew up :)

 That is the Beauty! We ALL found a Reason for Modfication!! Hearts grow, Karma is dealt out, Ignorance is either embraced with a smile or its destroyed and Realization is Painful AND Uplifting! Now, those that have wronged you in the past may not see it, and those that you wronged may not see that you were delivered the reckoning, but WE ourselves, all know when our moment came calling...and the longer the wait? The farther and more painful was the fall!! But, the Grace to that? Is "The Uplifting" and that is incredibly more miraculous! and thats when you can Embrace BOTH!! and Grow and Teach others. Hope is an endangered emotion....but so needed in this world! Now more than ever before....

 Now, there are many among us that have been fortunate to have a great marriage, great family, and different experiences, some of whom I notice, really do take for granted what is there.....Inconvenient truth is that You have been fortunate to really never NOT know whats that is like! I see and hear SOOO many judge in comparison to their own lives, keep in mind, you can be be alone very quickly ...each experience is OUR OWN.....You can walk in someone's footsteps and watch them track through life, but never truly wear their shoes....Those shoes were never made for you!! But the tracks still lead through the same fires, the same showers, and also through the same warm, healing sunlight. Embrace the Reasons for Modification! YOUR REASONS!! Be a Better Man or a Better Woman Everyday!! Learn to Accept the Inconvenient Truths with dignity and integrity and become stronger in your choices, reinforce the value of life...Your Life! and help others to do the same...You don't have to value the exact same things...Find YOUR Reasons for Modification! and realize this is a lifetime journey! There is no finish to this!!

The Inconvenient Truth is just that....We all want to have "complete" honesty, we all claim we want "complete" honest....until the truth doesn't fit the "happy, shiny" mold in our lives....How many of you giggle (like I do :) ) when someone says to you: "Can I be Honest with You?"....My first thought is "NO...this is the Liar's area.....Honesty is in the next room....we have to move in there.. Sorry!" No one WANTS complete honesty!! Thats a Dishonest expectation! NO YOU DON'T!! If the Truth brings pain or doesn;t allow you intstant gratification with certain things? YOU DON'T WANT THE HONESTY!! as a matter of Fact? You suddenly Modify your Reasons and Justify your actions!! You'll find that most abusers, liars, and maipulators (either gender) are exactly this way.....ON A CONSTANT BASIS!! Con-men and Con-women just take it to the next level.....but its all the same...and many pray upon You and I because we want to not be seen as "DISHONEST".....and use the Inconvenient Truth as a weapon....They know that You would shy away....and can be pushed into more difficult situations..makes it just easier to follow them, instead of be true to Yourself....

Another True Deep Soul, My Friend, Julie (last name held back for Internet nutjob reasons) once wrote to me:

"Great Change can sometimes bring Great Pain, but the change is so Brilliant? It lights the Worlds we Touch, Sadly, most Fear the Pain of the Light....and clutch deathgripped to the comfort of the Familiar"

She nailed it completely! in one great quote!! Inconvenient Truths rip worlds apart, but also make us think and feel...to find just that....Reasons For Modification.....