It is quite the journey to reach my current point in life....and My Moments are not greater or less than anyone else's...just different..my choices are my own, just as yours are your own....but revelations and epiphanies are not that far apart.....matters of moral degrees really...
"I heard that you're settled down That you found a girl and you're married now I heard that your dreams came true Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you"
Now the lyrics belong to a young woman that is like me..a deep soul..and old soul.... in a young body....so, so rare to find...she sings from her perspective but gender means nothing in her truest message, but I have always felt that here is not a song written ever that has not been felt by YOU alone! ..... but I am so thankful that so many have crossed my paths, even the ones who have tore lives apart...alot has to happen to bring that to fruition...a perfect storm...and they are a provider of wisdom AND survivors of No Ordinary Moments with us all....Deep and Old Souls are drawn to each other...and you and I share this life...we can wear our hearts like shields, and on ocassion, wield them like weapons, and we can also allow others to draw the greatest of strengths to let them move forward...and always be so grateful in being allowed to share their time! Friends, family, Loves, Former Loves....
Old friend, why are you so shy?Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light....
We can never turn back time...and why would you? That is not the direction you are going!! There are no "Ordinary Moments" there, there never were!!!...they have transformed....they are smiles, they are joys, they are pain, they are clarity, they are love, they are deceit, they are self doubt, they were never "Ordinary"..they are ..YOU! and it is who YOU ARE NOW!! and those that cross your life may be deep souls...and they may not be.....but beleive that those deep souls believe in YOU! Even when you don't! With out fear or favor needed...but will not allow you and SOOO many others to use that for narcisisstic beliefs....I cannot tell you where you are today...that is for YOU to know..
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited, But , I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it, I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded That for me, it isn't over....
Oh Jesus! The most incredible people I have met in my life!! To understand now is more than I can express.... To touch this heart...to feel the sting some have left on me, the inspiration they have inspired in me, the absolute destruction they left me with...You fed this deep old soul...and let it be known I know the path of destruction I left in my wake, and so humbled by you to see you flourish when I got it right to help you....You left me with no Ordinary moments...but they are linked to me solely....and yours are to you...not good,not bad, just different....I took what was given and worked with it...good or bad,...but am sooooo thankful I was there....A better man every day!! and please know...YOU have someone there that did as I did...and YOU DID FOR THEM!! Believe again! I beg of you!! :) Your wiser now.....stop giving it away without conviction and BELIEVE IN IT completely! :) Its not your hype...it is you! :)
Never mind, I'll find someone like you I wish nothing but the best for you, too Don't forget me, I begged, I remember you said Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead
I have been able to reconnect with so many over the past years that I foolishlessly believed I had done too much to hurt..I didn't believe...and I am not into regrets nor judgements....I lay it out there..."Don't Judge me because I SIN differently than YOU!" Revelations come to us in our own time...I don't back away from my past...and never am afraid to learn from it either...Too many try to use past transgressions they were NEVER a part of to manipulate...Expect you to "entertain them" because they missed something from someone else and then wait for the "magic sign" of worthiness.....I won't let that happen...NOT TO ANYONE I call friend, family and care for...nor allow that to myself ...not allow ANYONE to doubt themselves that has touched my heart, shown me respect,character and integrity...someone that wants to make life better for themselves without blaming others totally...I don't blow smoke....I give it to you straight but with dignity and honor..and so many have given it to me the same way...wisdom is absorbed from so many!! Never an Ordinary Moment.....It means so many great things to me...it is a strength I have learned of myself...because I kept seaching myself...and will help you do the same...I will always be a work in progress....and stand side by side with you as you learn that as well, about yourself! I ask for nothing but your kindness :)
You know how the time flies Only yesterday was the time of our lives We were born and raised in a summer haze Bound by the surprise of our glory days
I hate to turn up out of the blue, uninvited, But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded That for me, it isn't over yet
I have been graced and honored to be connected with my past...so many of my Alumni that I never was either allow to or were wanted with..youth was once a petty thing at times.....and with other old friends in my life at different stages...and with their friends that stood outside wondering who I was, and I them....and we finally let the world bring us to today..time was not our true ally...only our keeper ...and that to be a part of knowing you and your family is a grace to me...to be able to share my life is grace as well....to shake your hand, to hug you, to see your smile..to see it returned is a cherished moment, to me a blessed "No Ordinary Moment" to me.....always love the little moments in life...the big ones don't come often...
Never mind, I'll find someone like you I wish nothing but the best for you, too Don't forget me, I begged, I remember you said Sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah
There are no "Ordinary Moments", truly...day to day life is a routine...please don;t try and explain that away...who are you trying to convince? Me or yourself....Now if the will to not create "Ordinary Moments" is your mantra..then so be it and please let the eyes glaze over...but you know you better than anyone else...I believe you want more....
Nothing compares,
no worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?
Its only Bittersweet if you do NOTHING to change it, to fall back and never realize you have no "Ordinary Moments".........its not about US....never was...and isn't over....
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